The past couple weeks have brought on some late (and I mean late) night song sculpting sessions. This is my first time writing songs with a firm deadline hanging over my head which has been stretching and exciting all at the same time. I was talking with my wife the other day and came to the realization that for the first time as a songwriter I am being put in a position where I sometimes have to produce material when I am not immediately inspired to do so. Inspiration is a fluid amorphous ghost that comes and goes as she pleases. I love the challenge of learning new tactics for trudging into inspiration rather than simply waiting around for it to fall into my lap. Another exciting and challenging part of this process has been stepping outside of my box. I am about to reveal something most of you probably know however, for those of you that aren't very experience in what I am about to say please understand that I am revealing this out of transparency and not out of bitterness. Also I want to add that this is not something that everyone goes through, it is merely something I have experienced. Worship/"Christian music" today is an incredibly narrow road. What I mean by that is there are great demands on the shoulders of todays worship leaders/"believing" songwriters that want to create something new. It could be our own fault, it could be the demand of a church or it could be the demand of the congregation either way... this is what I have experienced. Somewhere down the line CCM (Contemporary Christian Music) started feeding the direct demands of the listeners rather than challenging them into something greater. I believe with all my heart that there is a home for both of these avenues of music. Both are needed. However, one can't survive healthfully without the other. Being a worship leader for years has done both good and bad to my creativity. On one hand, I have learned to posture my heart before the father regardless of circumstance. On the other hand, I have applied this invisible but massive list of rules to what I allow myself to produce. A lot of this writing process has been the exhausting process of dismantling those things in order to find my truest songs. Its sticky because worship is very much a part of me and I don't ever want to lose it. At the same time, I want to be able to worship without the demands of a thousand people having a say in what comes from my heart. This has been a majority of this journey. I will dig in and put together a song, then my producer and I will begin the process of inspecting every part of the song to find out what I could be doing more honestly or more outside my comfort zone. It is amazing. It is also hard. It is going to be so worth it at the end of the journey. I already feel my brain beginning to unlock in areas musically that have previously been silenced by no one other than myself. Sort of like growing pains you feel every step of the process. I can't wait to share these songs with all of you. I can't wait to envelope you all in the world I have been living in. Its going to be beautiful. I wanted to end this with a beautiful journal entry I found today. I dug this out of an old journal. Back when I sent my very first email to my now producer, before I even knew if he wanted to work with me, I wrote this...

"Jesus, I woke up this morning so excited for what you are doing. Even if I don't fully know what that is. I lean into the promise that you have set so beautifully in front of us. This record is going to happen. With Everett. Faith is required. Your goodness will always remain. Construct a path of clarity before me. I will walk regardless of the faith required. I am Yours. My dream is Yours. My future... Yours. I will always know you."

Brett Miller